We Should Be Kept Separate - People Like You and People Like Me

I am alone

Are you happy

Overjoyed

Proud

This is what you did to me

Squeezed everything out of my life

Nothing left

Except broken pieces

Memories of who I use to be

The life I use to have

I didn’t want you

I didn’t need you

I loved my life

You sucked me in

With your lies and neediness

You took from me

The sympathy and love and caring

That I had so much of

You cried every day

Because I touched your heart

With kind gestures

And heartfelt words

You’d never felt before

You made vows and promises

You committed yourself

To me, our future

The ideals we embraced

You betrayed me

And the kindness I gave you

The acceptance

Of your past

I asked you for only one thing

The truth

You don’t hurt kind people

Innocent people

That believe you

And believe in you

That trust you

With their hearts

Their souls

Their futures

I was never unkind to you

I was never dishonest

Or judgemental

Or harsh

I didn’t deserve this

Nothing I have ever done

Deserved this

 

It is never enough

You have to take more

Injure more

Until there is nothing left

Until I hate myself

For ever speaking to you

Letting your scum

Into my life

You made a joke

Of everything I believed in

All that I am

I want to take a knife

And cut you out of me

Off of me

Cleanse my skin

Inside and out

I can’t scrub your shame

Off of me

 

I want my life back

I want my joy

My belief in people

And goodness and love

I want the trust

I gave so easily

To someone who knew

Me and my children

I want my innocence

My empathy

My energy

You stole it all

Killed everything about me

That was good

It wasn’t yours to take

To leave for dead

I never damaged your soul

Or tore you down

I built you up

In every way

Told you that you were good

And smart

And deserving

And funny

I nourished your heart

Your mind

Your soul

Gave you the touch

You’d craved so long

Tenderness to soothe you

Patience to heal you

Faith in your abilities

Respect for your deeds

Trust in your choices

Admiration for your courage

Love for a heart

That had been deeply wounded

You were a lost soul

Thirsting for someone

To let you be free

You found it all in me

And then threw it all away

For a pathetic dream

Of finally being somebody

Because of your son's money

I want to forget everything about you

You are that man you told me about

That everyone else knew

Mean, and selfish and cold

Heartless, angry, vengeful

You didn’t have to be

You had a choice

A choice is all any of us have

All we are are our choices

You swore you were changed

Professed it everyday

Joyously celebrated your newfound life

The ease of living without worry and stress

The gratitude for being wanted

Touched and caressed

Told me over and over

How I made you feel like a man

Strong and proud

You confronted your past

Erased some of the shadows

That had held you back

What happened to you

And the man you wanted to be

The love that you felt

The life you imagined

The pride you developed

In your knowledge and abilities

The dreams you had

Of owning a business

Pursuing your passions

With my help and support

Of providing an example

For your son to follow

We should be kept separate

People like you

And people like me

Gentle souls are not equipped

For the havoc you wreak

I want to feel safe

Away from all harm

Where people are kind

And gentle and good

Where they do not lie

While kissing your neck

Call someone else

When you walk out the door

Do not withhold

Dignity and respect

Do not betray you

Behind your back

Do not degrade you to others

To advance themselves

Do not ask you to build a life

And then act as though it never happened

 

I don’t want to go forward

I don’t believe anymore

I don’t feel anymore

Nothing is the same

My world is gone

The one that I knew

Greeted every morning

With eagerness and zest

It is all frightening now

Evil and bad

I can't trust myself

To do the right things

Don’t know who to trust

Which way to turn

I want to stay inside and hide

Let life pass on by

I want to be left alone

Shut the world out

Protect myself

From people like you

I wake in the middle of the night

Sobbing

The hurt and pain

You left me with

Overflowing

The weight of that betrayal

Permeates the air

Absorbed by those

Who feel and see

Whose hearts are open

And kind

All the sadness

All the hurt

Of all the people

Who have been betrayed

Is inside of me

Because I am open

Because I do feel

Because I am real

A foreign concept

To someone like you

Whose heart was frozen

A long time ago

By harshness and neglect

A vacuum of neglect

Walled off your heart

Signals from the brain

Severed forever

Your spirit adrift

Nothing feels like home

We should be kept separate

People like you

And people like me