So Sad

Well, it didn't take long for him to venture out, or at least for me to find out, wonder how long it will take her. Very sad, but it was only a matter of time. When you get away with lies and aren't held accountable, the cycle never ends. If you refuse to change what your soul has been crying out for your entire life and keep living a lie, there is no other possible outcome.

He fully expected to go back to how it had always been, his pretend family life -- and the life with other women for emotional support, fun, a physical relationship, mental stimulation, and love. That is the truest, deepest reason for his instantaneous transmutation. When he thought of life there, it was always in terms of putting up with what he had to and getting everything else on the side, and never, ever, entertained even the notion of it being real or satisfying.